Salam merdeka 2016

Dearest creature in creation,
Study English pronunciation.
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse, and worse.
I will keep you, Suzy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy.
Tear in eye, your dress will tear.
So shall I! Oh hear my prayer.
Just compare heart, beard, and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word,
Sword and sward, retain and Britain.
(Mind the latter, how it’s written.)
Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as plaque and ague.
But be careful how you speak:
Say break and steak, but bleak and streak;
Cloven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, show, poem, and toe.
Hear me say, devoid of trickery,
Daughter, laughter, and Terpsichore,
Typhoid, measles, topsails, aisles,
Exiles, similes, and reviles;
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war and far;
One, anemone, Balmoral,
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel;
Gertrude, German, wind and mind,
Scene, Melpomene, mankind.
Billet does not rhyme with ballet,
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet.
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.
Viscous, viscount, load and broad,
Toward, to forward, to reward.
And your pronunciation’s OK
When you correctly say croquet,
Rounded, wounded, grieve and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive and live.
Ivy, privy, famous; clamour
And enamour rhyme with hammer.
River, rival, tomb, bomb, comb,
Doll and roll and some and home.
Stranger does not rhyme with anger,
Neither does devour with clangour.
Souls but foul, haunt but aunt,
Font, front, wont, want, grand, and grant,
Shoes, goes, does. Now first say finger,
And then singer, ginger, linger,
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze, gouge and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, and age.
Query does not rhyme with very,
Nor does fury sound like bury.
Dost, lost, post and doth, cloth, loth.
Job, nob, bosom, transom, oath.
Though the differences seem little,
We say actual but victual.
Refer does not rhyme with deafer.
Fe0ffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Mint, pint, senate and sedate;
Dull, bull, and George ate late.
Scenic, Arabic, Pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific.
Liberty, library, heave and heaven,
Rachel, ache, moustache, eleven.
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed, but vowed.
Mark the differences, moreover,
Between mover, cover, clover;
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police and lice;
Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label.
Petal, panel, and canal,
Wait, surprise, plait, promise, pal.
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor.
Tour, but our and succour, four.
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.
Sea, idea, Korea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria.
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean.
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.
Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion and battalion.
Sally with ally, yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, and key.
Say aver, but ever, fever,
Neither, leisure, skein, deceiver.
Heron, granary, canary.
Crevice and device and aerie.
Face, but preface, not efface.
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.
Large, but target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, out, joust and scour, scourging.
Ear, but earn and wear and tear
Do not rhyme with here but ere.
Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, Turk and jerk,
Ask, grasp, wasp, and cork and work.
Pronunciation (think of Psyche!)
Is a paling stout and spikey?
Won’t it make you lose your wits,
Writing groats and saying grits?
It’s a dark abyss or tunnel:
Strewn with stones, stowed, solace, gunwale,
Islington and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict and indict.
Finally, which rhymes with enough,
Though, through, plough, or dough, or cough?
Hiccough has the sound of cup.
My advice is to give up!!!

Late at nite ..in the early morning of merdeka 59..^ and all i am with these eyes .. cant sleep or maybe dont want to sleep.

Alhamdulillah i am now a wife.. but my husband is not by my side...this is not what totally i hope for..but syukur alhamdulillah Allah give me this chance ..

The rest is still learning and accepting... i am sometimes not really sure.. but i am trying to improve my life to the path of heaven... in shaa Allah..

Jauh dr suami bkn suatu yg mudah.. i was just had my failed pregnancy...bdn skt2 tekanan kerja yg kdg2 membuat aku nak give up...

Serius hari ni pn aku dah rs worst ..tp aku sembunyikan even dr pengetahuan suamiku.. bila fikir2 aku bkn seorg yg pandai nak justify kebenaran yg kupunyai..lalu seolah ia membenarkan disekelilingku menilai...

Serius, ada shj keputusan ku dinilai..

Cuma satu shj yg aku perasan, stp org yg aku pnh tolong pasti akhrnya mereka lah yg menilai dan menjatuhkan ku... walau semanis mana pn kenangan bersama mereka , akhirnya aku lah yg buruk...

Bila teringat hal ni.. aku tahu... akhirnya bkn manusia yg aku perlu hrpkan blsn baik...tp hnya Allah...

Aku tahu ini ujian utk ku agar aku tak lalai...terima kasih ya Allah.. jauhkan aku dr semua mereka ya Allah... dan jika aku teraniaya ... ko lindungi aku ya Allah dr hasad dan kejahatan mereka...

Life :: 26oct 2014

Just watched a little end part of the secret life of walter mitty..
And I am still in davao; mindanao..
In this only my room...alone with the sound from the tv...
Actually the fox or hbo at astro always show up with the movie; but I just don't have my chance to watch; or ignorance may always control myself... same for this time...it just me...has some times to watch the preface ...the soound track that grab my attention..."ground control to major tom" bla bla bla..its from david bowie; guitar played by a woman; might be the heroin for the movie...a song that i knew and loved to listen a little time back from now...i watched youtube to listen it again while then I just continue what I was wanted to do; taking bath and do packing to go back tomorrow...
And the tv do its job with my ignorance...
After sometimes;
once again its end just grab my attention....
A magazine entitled "life" dedicated for someone who made it...
And I start to write this....
Today the exhibition end...its so relieved when I manage to close it earlier because I just can't handle it anymore. It was so tiring...meetg people who keep asking waned to buy but I need to tell its not for sale n start explaining bla bla bla...and serve wet coffee sampling...bla bla...suck...sorry I just can't handle it anymore...dont ask me more.
Come back to my life..its not this that I am trying to show to my special or to closed frens...I just like to story...what I am heading to do or just did...they are all I have...that's it....
I am not regretting or complaining my life tru the story...I just do some talking and connecting...
I just hope I am not hurting eerybody who heard the story...
Life...its all on our own shoes...I never look down to others life especially to my closed one...
Never be hopefully until now and respecting is my ear..
Sometimes I just missed the moment of my best buddy listen to mine as they are really my closed one...never judge me..or never try to show me that I need to feel sorry why I start do talking...I really missed those time we can laugh to the silly thing we viewed...
But I know ... the time gone...people change...your best buddies also change...that their life change the way I  saw them once...
I end this writing by :
My boss asked me to decribe himself after I showed what I have read from a book
:: my answer : erm just wait..
:: his answer : ah that too bad for me...and its worst..
:: my explanation : don't make assumption; u just expecting some answer from me; but I just answer just wait..that s it..
Then his partner came ..
My boss asked me again ; what u can describe about him ?
:: my answer : don't much about him ( he is the boss from my the subdiaries company of the place that I work fpr now)
:: his partner told : u need to have 2 view..one is u don't need to know inside to describe somebody like u choose any book from the bookstore
Second :: yes u need to know the deepest of somebody..
And my response :: a smile
Then my fisrt boss came
And my boss once again asked..what u may describe about him ?
My answer :: don't know..and I smiled
His response ...really not fair...me just wait ..him u don't know...and what u can describe about ur special one..
My really one response : (pause..and a silence...)..maybe don't know ..
And my boss response was .. I think u just being honest ...
After awhile I just walked around other booth while holding boiler after filling it with full of water from matrade booth.and this one came up to my mind...maybe I just can't describe people from others story or description and I really sure the more u know someone the more u really don't know much ..that's life...kinetic ..